Disenchanted by the atheism she embraced in her teenage years, Ashley Lande turned to the world of psychedelic drugs and Eastern mysticism in search of meaning, satisfaction, and spiritual reality. Though her desires went unfulfilled, and she experienced the very opposite of what she was looking for, she kept returning to mushrooms and LSD. In her book The Thing that Would Make Everything Okay Forever, she writes: “Psychedelics made me believe I could have it all. Glory without submission. Transcendence without descent. Knowledge without trauma. Freedom without discipline. New life without death. It was all